Why are the days long but...

 Sept 26, 2023
Hot Tuesday morning,
Kids in school, hubby at work, home alone

It is a hectic week at home and I am almost panicking.
So many things going around in my head.

Felt like I was getting poetic so I scribbled some lines but it doesn't seem to make any sense.
I discovered old unfinished writings, that I still cannot  finish but cannot bear to discard as well.

My mind is...

Oops, got really busy and overwhelmed that I was not able to finish the post at all.
Fast forward to one week after...

Oct. 3, 2023
No longer as hot, a sunny Tuesday morning
But there is a tropical depression named Jenny
Still home alone, kids and hubby in school

I have a task today but I am not as busy or cranky as last week. Today, I am more relaxed so I had time to do some exercise this morning. Enjoyed my alone time as well by listening to some music. The past week has not been ideal; I mean, it has not been that great but still grateful for it. 

But today is a relaxing one and I am even thinking of watching a Netflix movie or series later. Even thinking about making pork steak for dinner. In short, I am in quite a good mood today. So different from last week and even a few days ago. This time last week, I was snapping at everyone (blame it on the PMS hormone!) and I don't feel like getting out of bed at all (but I forced myself to because I need to).

With this sudden change in just a span of one week, it is not so foolish to wonder if the next week will be totally different. Come to think of it, I was doing, thinking very different things as compared to last year at this time.

I may have stayed in one place but  so many things have changed. It is both sad and enlightening to realize that everything around me is changing, evolving right before my eyes. And everything is happening so fast, it is so easy to miss.

 

It makes me feel a bit nostalgic, thinking how futile it is to hold on to things past. How impossible to redo or re-experience things that are over with.I guess we just have to pray for the grace to recognize the beauty despite he chaos, the masterpiece behind the ruins. And to keep reminding ourselves to enjoy the present and always be grateful for the moments we are alive.